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Salam and pleasant day to everybody, today I would love to share about self-confident or self-esteem.yes, I'm going to be 31 this year. Honestly, tell me how many people in this year that successfully achieve 100% of their confident level? To be honest, I don' t even reach 50% of that. There so many reason behind that, maybe we are naturally like that, they way we were brought up maybe, or it can be millions of other factors. As for me, this low self-confident is main factor why I am 'still here'. In my comfort zone. When I was wee girl I used to dream BIG. I still remember when I was 8 or 9 when the teacher asked me what I want to be when I grow up, I said I want to be an astronaut. All my classmate were laughing and mistakenly heard 'groundnuts'. But my teacher was impress, coming from a middle class family from kampung in Taiping... eemm ... I am still a bit proud of it I would say.
But after something big happen to my family, something really challenge.. Everything changed. I looked at the society, how they can be mentally low on judging something. Seeing my mother struggling, and how strong she was. It is sad when people looked down on you and started giving bad remarks. It really hurts until I tottally lost everything my confident.. I felt like I can't do anything, dream big like a big sin. I hated myself.
After few years passing by I started to think ( sometimes I love thinking and judging till the end I do nothing). I started reading a lot of motivational books. I kinda love it. Trust me, i've read variety of it but I dont execute anything. It didn't mean that I don't start any but it just seems worked to me.
Until recently I've found the book titled 'Quranic Law of Attraction' by Rushdi S.Rauf. It was INCREDIBLE and AMAZING! I think everybody must have it and there is one condition if you wish to read it.. Read it with an OPEN MIND. Trust me, the impact after it was really 'MAGIC'.
It change a lot of me. Slowly but surely I starting building up my confident my believe, and never bother or listen to people when they Said you can't do anything, when the laugh at you when you said you want to have a Bentley Continental GT. Screwed them!